One of my friends snap-chatted this picture of me to me and I really liked it, so i’m deciding to keep it here. I think what I really adore about this picture is that I have had a seriously tough day today, it’s been a crazy mixture of depression, frustration, and loneliness. But this picture captured one moment in the day where I was okay. I was able to smile. You can’t see pain or brokenness in this picture. It’s just happy. After a long day, I was still able to smile (and look this good, surprisingly). I love that.

Oh and for anyone who is wondering about the caption- my friend was joking that in two years, I’ll be his girlfriend. He gets “friend zoned” all the time by girls, and he says that his relationships with girls takes time and patience. So, two years. We shall see.

One of my friends snap-chatted this picture of me to me and I really liked it, so i’m deciding to keep it here. I think what I really adore about this picture is that I have had a seriously tough day today, it’s been a crazy mixture of depression, frustration, and loneliness. But this picture captured one moment in the day where I was okay. I was able to smile. You can’t see pain or brokenness in this picture. It’s just happy. After a long day, I was still able to smile (and look this good, surprisingly). I love that.

Oh and for anyone who is wondering about the caption- my friend was joking that in two years, I’ll be his girlfriend. He gets “friend zoned” all the time by girls, and he says that his relationships with girls takes time and patience. So, two years. We shall see.



"Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love but refuse to admit openly. Some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. Fear that their feelings may not be recognized, or even worst, returned. But one thing about human beings that puzzles me the most is their conscious effort to be connected with the object of their affection even if it kills them slowly inside."  - Sigmund Freud


Darling, if I’m honest
You’ve been on my mind, on my mind all day.
And lately, if I’m honest
I can’t bring myself to think no other way.
I painted over all the cracks
But now the paint is peeling back

Oh yeah, 
It’s a shame but it’s true, nobody loves me
When the flame turned blue, nobody loves me
It burned a hole right through
Now nobody loves me the way that,
The way that you, the way that you used to.



The Freedom Tower at sunset, as seen in Hoboken, New Jersey. (at Hudson River Waterfront Walkway)

The Freedom Tower at sunset, as seen in Hoboken, New Jersey. (at Hudson River Waterfront Walkway)


i swear to fucking god its not fucking cool

i find a guy who seems nice and still, always still, I CAN NEVER FUCKING COMPARE TO OTHER PEOPLE

like i swear its so fucking irritating i just want to find someone that wants to be with me. HOW IS THIS SO FUCKING HARD i’ve lived 23 years of my fucking life and EVERY FUCKING MAN i’m their goddamn consolation prize and it’s not fair it’s not fucking cool i’m fucking done with being every one’s “oh wait i WOULD be with you but….:

its not fair i just want one one fucking guy that i like that likes me first and likes me more, more than any other fucking woman in their life and they just are happy with having me, because i swear, i try so fucking hard, i really do. i try so GODDAMN HARD to be the girl that every one would want but no, every FUCKING time i’m second, second to someone else in their life that is more important, more significant.

and you know what this makes me feel like? i feel like a useless piece of fucking trash. or you know what, not even fucking trash, because at least trash gets incinerated, i think. i’m recyclables.

something that men think they can use and re use becauSE WHO FUCKING CARES ITS RECYCLABLES and fuck it all i’m fucking aggravated. 

all i want more than any thing in the fucking world is for another fucking human being to care for me as much as i care for them. i JUST got rejected as trash, i literally did a couple weeks ago. i was told i wasn’t worth it and it’s not fair, it’s never fair for me to fucking continue to be this fucking person who is just tossed around I DONT WANT THAT.

i want someone to be fucking PROUD for once in my goddamn life that they could get me. it shouldn’t be this fucking difficult, and fuck it all I’M DONE.


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thatbrummielass said:
You're very pretty and I love your dress! :) x

I FUCKING LOVEYYOU TOO even though its 2am and i’m not entirely sure who you are. hell i’m not entirely sure who i am at this point.


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i am very excited for tonight. the girls are out to play.

side note: I am very tipsy, y’all should get in my inbox.





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"I asked you, ‘Tell me about her.’ And you looked me in the eyes and replied, ‘Well, what do you want to know?’ and that’s the exact moment I knew you didn’t love her, not really. See, if you did you would’ve gone on about how her voice is now your favorite sound. That when she is next to another women their beauty doesn’t even compare to hers. How even when she steals the blankets at 3am you’re just glad she’s warm. That when she touches you, even slightly, it causes the hairs on the back of your neck to stand. How when you kiss you don’t know whose air your breathing but you know that all you want is to be there in that moment forever. That you can see yourself having three children and a dog in a beautiful house someday soon. How her eyes are pure and truthful and when you look into them all you feel is happiness. That her laugh is what you live for even though it’s loud and obnoxious. How looking at her makes all the bad seem okay. You would’ve gone on a rant about her without hesitation, like the way I do when someone asks me why I still love you."  -