i’m so distressed it feels like i’m in physical pain- i can actually feel the pull in my chest, it feels like my ribs are caving into my heart and lungs.
i care a lot.
so i just got home from the Cardozo reception and it is official: I won’t be going to their school.
i just didn’t get the best vibe from their alumni and staff. i wanted to be “wow”ed by them, i wanted them to change my mind, and they failed to do that. they didn’t show me that their school would be worth the tens of thousands (if not hundreds of thousands) that i would be shelling out for cost of living in NYC.
it feels like their big priority is technology, property, tax law, and all those other things that you make loads and loads of cash from. i mean it’s great to make money, of course it is. believe me, i would love to be covered in cash. but i want a school that has a vision of… doing good. and i get that feeling a lot more from University of Connecticut.
with that, i’m about 92% sure now that i’ll be attending UConn Law. especially after i spent some time talking to a UConn Law 2L today. she just reaffirmed my faith in this school. hell, she even said that a lot of their students intern over the summer at NYC and end up taking the New York bar. so hey, if it is that crucial to my life to get to New York.. i’ll get there, i’ll find a way.
mom and dad are now talking about me getting an apartment in Connecticut. dad told me he’ll get me a lease on a brand new car, in case i decide to move back to California after, it’s only a three year commitment. we’re talking about school loans, and deposit money and…
it all just seems so real. and terrifying. and exciting and just.. holy crap. moving to Connecticut? Connecticut has never been on my radar in my entire life. i don’t know anything or anyone there. this would be me, starting new. this will be where i create myself, where i begin building upon the foundations for my future that i have made during my undergrad. hopefully i’ve made a solid base for myself.
i just want to do well, you know?
i want to learn how to speak hindi.
I just ditched a cop that was trying to pull me over for going 60 in a 40.
That was the most badass thing I have ever done. I feel like a straight G. Hot damn.
Today is going to be a good day.
today has been one of the most absolutely frazzling days ever.
i went to my cousin’s house, who lives four exits down from me. i was so lost in thought and freak out that i drove past the exit and kept driving for about twenty minutes before i realized that i forgot to exit.
is it insane to think that this is all still…. pretty incredible? my life is actually quite wonderful.