I’m on day two of law school and I have so many things to do and I feel like my life before this was all just a dream, or remnants of a past life. I can’t remember basic things I used to know, my mind is rotating around the concepts of law and everything I’ve learned in two measly days. I can’t explain how much information I have been loaded with in the last two days and somehow this is just the beginning..
And then, all this super ultra focused nature that I am trying to get my brain used to has resorted to the thing it knows best- obsessing… over literally anything and everything, I can’t stop THINKING and it’s terrible I’m making stuff up in my head that hasn’t even happened yet and getting upset about it and it’s CRAZY.
I need to get into a pattern, I need to create a balance. I need to be able to DO THIS. To the best of my ability.
I think what’s happening now is that, I know full well that I CAN do this. But what will be left of me after I do?